I sat down to write a quick retort so I could sleep and it turned into a rant.

Yea obviously STJ is Yodel. I never changed any of my behavior, I spoke Spanish, I told the same jokes and I was truthful about what went on in my real life. It was hilarious to me when Guant said once "oh no way can you be Yodel, Yodel wouldn't go to school." Just goes to show that once people have made up their mind about something they can be quiet ignorant as to the facts presented right in front of there face. No offense Gaunt.

The reason I changed accounts and didn't tell anyone was because I received constant harassment from alts and, to a limited degree, from people on facebook too. When every single day someone tells you to go kill yourself and it's a random dude you have never met the only conclusion one can draw is that they are being stalked. As soon as Int "outed me" I started receiving the same death threats and mindless attacks from low level players. It would be great of the mods actually did something but sadly only certain people get protection from mods. Anyone besides Fiero get banned for mocking my near death experience? Nope. Not a one.
How would any of you feel if your life was a mockery. You can say, oh but you have said hateful stuff too Yodel, and I agree, I have. I will say this in my defense. When Fiero started attacking me I lost it. I couldn't believe that mods on this site would allow someone to behave in such a fashion. I did behave poorly and I have no excuse. The whole situation was amplified because it took me almost two years to get even an admonishment of Fiero's actions by the mods. This allowed him to go out and get supporters to mock and troll me under the guise that what he was doing was simple internet fun and not way out of line. I admit I should have never become friends with Fiero (AKA Jesse) but that doesn't excuse mod's inactions. During those two years I pretty much told everyone on Fiero's team (and there were lots of them) every nasty and mean thing I could think of. I feel deeply sorry for that to be honest. I should have spent more time trying to explain just what Jesse was doing but I got mad. I have an explanation for why I got so mad as well, it's not an excuse though I'm not trying to take away from anything. I was suffering from a chronic nasal infection behind one of my eyes and the whole area had closed up causing me massive headaches. I ended up having to have surgery a year ago. Surprise surprise, I immediately a less angry person when I came out of surgery. That doesn't excuse my behavior and I am truly sorry for it. This isn't the first time I have apologized for my behavior on this account and none neither my infection of anger at the system justifies being rude.

Now I ask, is anyone's hateful behavior towards me justified in any way?

One thing I want to point out though is that I never told anyone to kill their family. That's blatant slander and Jurgen should truly be ashamed for putting it on my acc. Jurgen didn't even ban me for that, he banned me for telling him to fuck off and threw that tidbit in there out of spite. If I had really said it then he should have banned me for it right?


Lets jump to my interaction with Ryan (aka Pursey)on this site. The reason I was banned was because when I entered the a 5k Ryan immediately started calling me Yodel and trolling me with Slayer and a few others. I informed him (still not aware that he was Ryan) that I had written Ryan about Jurgen's threat to release my IP and that I felt he was harassing me and that he should stop. (yes I misread that Jurgen said I had to give permission.) I did mention that it is illegal to release private information of people but that comment was aimed at Jurgen's threat and it was quiet obvious. Ryan responded by using his Pursey account to ban me. He even said "Don't talk about this anymore or Ima -post you." and when I didn't he -post, -chat me anyways. He then started saying stuff like "Hey guys STJ is gonna have a hard time flagging when he sits." Hardly the behavior fitting an owner of this site. Wouldn't you agree Ryan?

Now lets touch on other players at this site since apparently I'm the biggest threat to the stability here.

-Fiero, Massive abuses on every level. Still has mod support for hiding behind alts and bashing people.

-Lalita Lani, Tells people to fuck off and die and calls them a PGA cheat every single time she loses. It's ok though because Jurgen likes her.

-Mulder (aka Shannon) Need I say more? How many more chances was he given vs me?

-Chase, See fiero.

Every, single, cabal, that, ever, existed.

I could go on for a while with players and abuses. It seems to only really matter when I do it. Every action I do is weighted much more heavily. I'm pretty sure that this has to do with the fact that I trolled Ryan repeatedly on this site because he never responded once to my pleas of protection against Fiero. I wrote him many times asking for help.

The only time Ryan has ever responded to an email of mine was when I tried to buy his website, that was a week ago.

I'm going to try and never come back to this website again. Since my surgery I have been improving my life in many ways. I gave up smoking, I graduated with multiple, hard science degrees, and I lost 100 lbs that I gained after having a my lung collapse due to being attacked. The next step is dropping bad habits like this game. The hacking and cheating is still really high and it bothers me. In real life I am honest to a fault so cheating and lying grates on me. It is time to find some way to waste my free time that is less stressful.

Now to say some things to individuals, I'm going to miss a few people I'm sure. Sorry in advance but it's very late and I'm tired.

Int: Sorry I didn't tell you I changed accounts. I did and do like you. I just feel like I can't trust you. Probably has more to do with me than with you. I know you were hurt and that's why you outted me. Again I'm sorry.

Greeen: I'm not sure if you were trying to add me to FB the other day. The paranoid side of me says that someone put you up to it. The logical side says that you are simply a nice person and can read through the bullshit. Thanks for always seeing both sides of every situation. I wish I had added you.

Api, I know you don't like me but thanks for trying to see my side of things. It is always a two way street. I respect your sense of self awareness.

Fuzzy, It was funny how mean you were to me on STJ and how nice you were to me on Yodel. :):):)

Dude, One day I really will bench 350 :P Stay fit bro.

To everyone who wasn't a raging asshole to me: It was my pleasure to compete against you all. I've always found competing on kdice to be extremely entertaining and that is because of the people.

To everyone who was a raging asshole to me: DEEZ NUTZ!

*Yodel has left the building*